Ready? Um, Yes.

Wellllll I'm 41 1/2 weeks pregnant!  I really thought I'd be cuddling my new baby by now, but he is just not quite ready to leave his comfy little home :). I know a lot of you have been asking how I am and if we haven't gotten back to you all-- please forgive me!  We're all doing great.  Really :) 

My goal this entire pregnancy has been to have a completely different experience than we did with Westin.  We could not be more in love with our sweet 2-year-old, but it is probably no secret that I did not enjoy that pregnancy or delivery!  My pregnancy was a little on the stressful side-- Kreg & I had been married for 4 months when I took a positive pregnancy test... we were both in school full-time and working nearly full-time and had made plans for grad school and the like.  I was also a long way from my mama with NO idea what I was doing.  As excited as we were and as blessed as we felt, it was stressful!  I ended up with high blood pressure which I am convinced was a result of the fact that the last month of my pregnancy I was trying to take finals, graduate, and get ready to move to Colorado.  I was just slightly stressed :) We ended up being induced at 38 weeks which made for a difficult labor.  I was set on having a natural birth with no epidural-- which is difficult to do with drugs like pitocin and a body that is just not quite ready.  I'm very proud to say I did do all 22 hours with no epidural & pretty horrible back labor, but I wish the entire experience had been a little different! Let me just say again how in love I am with my son & how thankful I am that we all made it through safe & healthy.

All that being said, I was convinced this pregnancy would be different!  And it has! I'm so blessed to be a stay-at-home mommy this time around, to be settled in our home, our marriage, and our family, to have a little experience under my belt, and to have such great support from my husband, my mom, my fantastic midwife, and two very talented chiropractors.  I am content to wait for this little boy & my body to be ready to work together for an easier labor. I've said that all along and now I am just spending each day reminding myself of that fact :) I am content to wait.  My blood pressure has been perfect from day 1, even though I have carried this little boy over 3 weeks longer than Westin, I have gained 10 less pounds, which I think has contributed to my overall comfort, I have had very little, if any swelling, which I have been so thankful for!  

Everyone has been so great about keeping me busy over the past 9 days and helping me keep a positive focus.  I've really enjoyed the little treats Kreg brings home, the pedicures, shopping, and constant walking that my sisters put me through :), girls nights & movie nights and splurging on our eating out just so I don't have to cook in my hot kitchen.  I am so incredibly blessed and I have not forgotten that!  What is a couple extra weeks when I've been waiting so many months to meet our precious little Tucker Kreg?  

I have been delighted by this verse over the past few days: "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." Proverbs 16:9  I'm just thankful for the simple reminder that I am not in control, have never been in control, but I know who is and am 100% convinced that His timing is always more perfect than mine. 

All that being said, thank you all so much for your prayers, your thoughts, and your kindness!  I know we're getting closer every minute!  Specifically, please keep me in your prayers as I seem to be fighting a sinus infection... great timing, right? :) I'm taking all my vitamins and drinking my tea and hoping this will be the last day of feeling yucky!